It was almost like an out of the world experience. Here I was following this guy, as he was walking a few feet ahead. I could see his anger radiating out like hot yellow rays! It was as if I was experiencing all his emotions in colour.
He reached the junction and exploded in ager at someone standing there, who was blocking his way. The yellow sparks that flew out almost blinded me…wow, I said, what anger. He continued walking, fast. I was just able to catch up.
I could see the anger boiling inside him as the phone call came. Why you called me, he muttered under his breath. I could feel that he was very angry at his wife for having called him. He tried to speak normally but I could see it all in colour.
I saw his mind literally…the hurt and anger inside. It was not a pretty sight at all. I sensed that he was irritated with his wife for having called him to check where he was. He was feeling hurt inside, maybe saying inside, what, doesn’t she trust me to reach in time? The hurt was like some deep pain which was causing him to literally explode at her. The pain inside I could see as shades of red.
I felt like calling the fire brigade. This was a serious hazard.
I looked around at other people. There was a lady waiting for a bus. Her emotions were green, and yellow. I tuned into them and discovered that they were equally bad. Jealousy was literally eating her up from the inside, coupled with rage.
I saw yellow, red, green everywhere. God, these are really hurting people, I said.
Then a strange thing happened. Yes, I heard! I looked around, and suddenly felt God was besides me. Pure white, with an emotion like no other I have yet experienced. I could feel His love flowing out, the peace He wanted these people to experience.
God, I said. You are so awesome….. and yet the people you created go through life with such anger, hate, jealousy… why oh Lord.
They have looked elsewhere for what they want, everywhere except to me, said the Lord.
I understood. We all were at war, within ourselves and against others. All of us, when seen by God, are walking around with violent colours, anger, rage, jealousy, coveting, greed, lust and so on. How horrible we must be looking. To God, and to others. And yet, it is beyond belief that God does not look at that husband the way his wife looks, with disappointment and indifference.
God was in Christ making peace between the world and himself, not putting their sins to their account, and having given to us the preaching of this news of peace.
Rom 8:1 For this cause those who are in Christ Jesus will not be judged as sinners.
Rom 8:2 For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has made me free from the law of sin and death.
Rom 8:3 For what the law was not able to do because it was feeble through the flesh, God, sending his Son in the image of the evil flesh, and as an offering for sin, gave his decision against sin in the flesh:
Rom 8:4 So that what was ordered by the law might be done in us, who are living, not in the way of the flesh, but in the way of the Spirit.
There are always three sides to every story: your side, the other side, and the truth. Now, what is it that makes the scene interesting for you? The man, venting out his emotions through the doorway called anger, which caught your attention? Or the woman on the other side, of whom you could not see (any color) or hear anything? Some men see things as they are and ask why. Others dream things that never were and ask why not. What man sees depends mainly on what he looks for. Probably, the man’s anger is a step to create or experience a new feeling or joy which would result out of the momentary anger. Unless experiencing anger, he would least understand the meaning of joy and peace that follows, if reason is seeked behind his wife’s intentions/actions. God, the infinite source of intelligence, or Nature, if you wish to call, is constantly manifesting new realities, guiding man across the maze of life to find the hidden and underlying energy within him, so that he experiences the physical, mental and spiritual changes that make up his existence. Because existence, is not static but a continuous process of “becoming”, to venture beyond the barriers of man’s own experiences ; to discover new worlds; to unfold new mysteries of life; to blend all colors of human emotions into harmonious white, the color of truth, purity, peace and goodness – GOD.